Again...or is it still...
my knitting needles have been calling me.
I even produced a few items this winter.
But it feels like an indulgence.
To sit and make knots in yarn.
I mean, it doesn't really need to be done.
Producing knitting is not being productive.
I have a love/hate relationship with productivity.
I want to be able to just "be" (or at least knit and be),
but then my mind starts working,
and I keep thinking of things I could be doing,
or could have done,
and then I can't "be" at all.
It's not like I'm ever really all that productive.
But I do have an appropriate amount of guilt over it.
Or is it inappropriate?
Recently I told someone that I my day had been particularly productive
and that productivity made me feel good.
And in reply I heard, "as if productivity were the meaning of life."
Yeah. Snicker. I know. Snicker.
Wait...
I need some help with this one.
How do I resolve it?